Have you ever felt like you wake up, do the same thing and start all over the next day?
The monotony of life has made me start to feel like I'm on my own hamster wheel. The reality of life keeps hitting harder and some days I find myself spinning out of control. It's hard to feel good when you think sucky thoughts.
I've been trapped in my own mind for months now. Some days finding it hard to breathe, while others just merrily strolling along with a smile on my face but a secret pang in my heart.
For the longest time, I felt bad for feeling bad. For the longest time, I didn't know how to tell anyone that my life felt stuck, lonely and boring.
I was the "successful" one who shouldn't complain or doubt myself. I was the one people came to cheer up...But the truth is that my sail doesn't feel that way, at least not today.
I'm sharing this because I'm sure you too have a down day, month or even year.
I'm sharing because I want you too to have the courage, to be honest with yourself and it's ok to not be ok...
I know that I'm gonna feel better someday soon when I don't know.
But what I do know that makes me feel better when I feel this way is to express my feelings and not hide it inside. (ps this doesn't mean you need to express it publicly, but if you can be honest with yourself that's the best start)
Even though my insides may feel shitty, my heart is still full of love and on this day I want to share it with your heart.
Thank you for allowing me space to vulnerable.
Holding space for you,
ps. Shoutout to our friends at Roselium for understanding the magic of MaeMae and being able to hold space for us in the midst of the darkness so we can be open to share our light!